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AKA Peace & Love Feels Like 
Era 2013-2020

Includes Lyrics & Poems from
possibilities & Heartbreak LoveStories Vol.1
The Strength To Love You:
possibilities Vol.2
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I Guess THis Is What Love Feels LIke
THe Dreamscape Confessions 


I'M OKAY (OFF MY CHEST)

3/22/2016

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No one sees the real pieces of me, the one that is always
crying while no one is looking. Choking on another
personal song, and I just sit myself in my room on
my floor, with my pen and paper just to express how
sad I am, and how no one will see, and the people
who claim they do say they know the feeling, but honestly
I don't know if they are telling the truth. Some moments, I feel
like I don't get the cold blunt truth, and I just make a
truce with the people in my life to not hold onto this pain, and
not to cry anymore, but there is always more, and it swings
the damn door right open.


I'm just writing this to get it off my damn chest.
I can try my best not to make no one cry, and ask me how I feel?
I still feel like no one will miss me when I'm gone.
You don't understand, and you don't know. I get blown
away, and all I can say is I'm okay, and no one notices
that I'm breaking and shattering on the inside. I don't know how
express me because I feel like it'll be a crime.
I pray to god to take the pain away, but sometimes I feel like I get
more and more everyday, and all I can say is I'm okay.
I've lost words to say except that I'm okay. I pray to god
to take the pain away, and let me have a day of grace.


The moments where I just don't know, all I need to know
is that I have to go. Try to pick up my flow, and go and try
to preform in a show where I don't see anyone I know. Feeling
like I've been slow, and I just can't take it no more. God lead me to
the door, I can't take it anymore. Heart and soul on the floor.
Some days where I feel I can't even play the fool, I see it only
in me, and I try to be the best damn me I can be after that.


I'm just writing this to get it off my damn chest.
I can try my best not to make no one cry, and ask me how I feel?
I still feel like no one will miss me when I'm gone.
You don't understand, and you don't know. I get blown
away, and all I can say is I'm okay, and no one notices
that I'm breaking and shattering on the inside. I don't how
express me because I feel like it'll be a crime.
I pray to god to take the pain away, but sometimes I feel like I get
more and more everyday, and all I can say is I'm okay.
I've lost words to say except that I'm okay. I pray to god
to take the pain away, and let me have a day of grace.


I don't want to be okay, I don't want to be fine. I don't
want to be alright. Praying to god to send me that grace, so I can
carry myself in the race, I'm not going to be okay, I'm not going to be
fine, I'm not going to be alright. I'm going to be a fighter, and pray
for a lighter path. I want to be great, I want to be the fighter,
breaker, and winner within me.


I'm just writing this to get something off my damn chest, I can try my
best not to cry, on this personal song. I know how the hell I will be
feeling afterwards, I'm not going to cope with this breaking entry, I'm
just writing this to get this pain off my damn chest, I'm going to do my
best to make a better day. I'm gonna be great, I don't wanna be okay.  
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      • Black Poet Blog
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    • Possibilities & Heartbreak Love Stories: Volumes 1-3 >
      • Possibilities & Heartbreak Love Stories Vol.1
      • The Strength To Love You: Possibilities Vol. 2
      • Ghost & Breathe: Heartbreak LoveStories Vol.3
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    • A Winter's Moonlight
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