Entry 1

Entry 1

 My name is no name, I have been through hell and I have not let anyone know. I am trying to handle it on my own, see I hate to cry. I have not over cried over anything within a year. Because I told myself, there should be nothing in the world that should make you cry that hard. Crying is so easy, but to me it is so weak and so helpless. That’s not who I want to be, that’s not what I want people to see me as. I want them to see me as a writer, author, rapper, song writer, producer director and actor. That’s how I want the world to see me. Now for the last few days I have been thinking about giving up, why keep going when am only going to end up in pain. Getting hurt by things that should not affect me in any way shape of form, trying to play it off as cool and that I don’t care.

 Trying to be who I am is not easy, hell being human is not easy trying to be strong only gets harder as you get older and wiser. Making tough decisions and making the tough calls that will only in the end affect your life. You want someone to hold your hand, but 9 times out of 10 no one will be there, you will be alone and you will be forgotten. I know it sounds harsh but got damn it it’s the fucking truth. People are going to love you, hate you, remember and forget you just as quick. But don’t and I mean don’t for any damn reason forget you. People come and go, happiness comes and goes sadness hurt pain it all comes and it all goes.

 But it’s up to you to figure out how you take it, now am writing this just to vent, just to express what I can no longer express in a song or a rap or story. Am trying to fight new obstacles every damn day of my waking moment.  It’s not easy, life is not easy; happiness does not just come to you on a silver platter. The movies I feel portray it just right, these characters look for it, the only thing is that the writer or the director sometimes make it look easy, but in the end it’s hard. That’s the truth like I said; a lot of you may already know this.

 It’s easier to give up, but it’s harder to live knowing that you gave up so willingly and so quickly.

Fight till the day you fucking die, no lie just fight, it’s never going to be easy for some it maybe.

But if you’re like me, it will never be easy for you; you just got to fight and look harder till you find what the hell you are looking for out of life.

My name is Deon “Peace” Durr a Writer, Author, Rapper, Director, Produce and a fucking fighter.

Peace, Peace Out and Much Love.