Off My Chest (Dreamscape)

I’ve been dealing with some trials.
Been afraid to walk the fires, been
scared to say what’s on my mind.
My heart is up in shambles, my mind
fighting to stay silent about what my
heart really wants. My inner ambitions
haunting me like I’m lost in some abandoned
Dreamscape.

My head is filled with numbers and stars.
Flickering on and off trying to stay atop
of it all. Trying to take it by day by day.
Honestly, it feels like I’m breaking and each
piece that chips off is breathtaking. Leaves
me in my dreams shaking. Praying for some
clarity in my reality.

Feels like someone Is reaching for me,
but I don’t know which hand to grab. I see
so many in my path. I look over to a mirror
reflecting someone I barley recognize. The
eyes telling everything but lies.

Been feeling heavy for the last few days. Haven’t
been feeling crazy, honestly it’s only for show. Just
to keep my image a float.

​Days I wonder how long can I really go with this
act? When this show will stop selling out? When
will I just black out? When will this beat
drop, when will I just black out or tap out?

Inner Ambitions haunting like I’m lost in some
abandoned dreamscape. My head is filled
with numbers and stars. My heart is filled with
ups and downs. My insecurity reality is pictures
of me hiding from the stage. Fears to tears, I know
this story all too well. I know this plot all too well.
I know myself all too well.

I’ve Faced the darkest demons so this seems like nothing
to me. I’ve faced the darkest part of me, so this seems
like nothing to me. Just sometimes I have to get somethings
off of my chest. Put some old demons and insecurities to rest.
Just remember just to give my best. Day by day, I’ll make
to the 18th street dream, breaking out into my own
reality.

My head is filled with numbers and stars, getting them in order
so I can go far. Remembering to embrace my ambitions, realize my
Inner inhibitions. My heart is filled ups and downs, putting
this off till another entry, just not ready to face this side of me
yet, but yet each piece that breaks off is just revealing the new layer of
my inner me, a new side of me. A closer to finding that one
thing my heart is really looking for.

Off My Chest, in my Dreamscape....