SMILE

I watched you, and then you looked my way to
see me smiling. I look away too quick because
I never know the right words to pick when
I see you and god forbid you see me. You got
my heart messed up.

Got my eyes filling up with daydreams.
Got my heart running out on me trying
to get ahold of your hand. Got myself
screaming “Oh damn this wasn’t the plan”
when you see me feels like I’ve ran a mile
just so you don’t see me smile. Hiding this
smile is just my way of staying in denial. Just
away for me to keep my heart off this trial.
Just away for me to keep running and not
dealing with these feelings.

The moment I see you my smile comes out.
Nothing I can do, my heart tries to stay afloat,
but feelings tear it apart. My smile makes
the denial known. My denial, my excuse to leave
this trial when my feelings are front and center. I
try to remember to just hide my smile.

You smiled back at me, but I am still hiding
my smile. You walked up to me, that moment
I remembered that I’m a bad liar. My heart
on fire, but your touch puts me out. My heart
is trying to get away from me again.

You knew my name, and I felt like I was
going insane. You looked at me and smiled
and asked, “why hide your smile?” just trying
To keep my mind stable. A part of me cannot
handle this moment. You grabbed my hand, I said
out loud oh damn this wasn’t the plan. You
smiled and laugh. Nervously said “I got feelings
for you”, you said you knew could tell “by the denial
in my smile” The moment you asked for my smile,
my whole body shuts down, but my heart warms up.

The moment I see you my smile comes out.
Nothing I can do, my heart tries to stay afloat,
but feelings tear it apart. My smile makes
the denial known. My denial, my excuse to leave
this trial when my feelings are front and center. I
try to remember to just hide my smile.

You held my hand, got me smiling and no longer
living in my denial. You got my heart, and my
heart doesn’t wanna be let go. Just going
with the flow. You told me don’t hide my smile
anymore.

The moment I see you my smile comes out.
Nothing I can do, my heart tries to stay afloat,
but feelings tear it apart. My smile makes
the denial known. My denial, my excuse to leave
this trial when my feelings are front and center. I
try to remember to just hide my smile.


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