#18: Moonlight 10/22 (EBook)

Tried, trust issues, a heart filled with
unfulfilled wishes. A heavy soul asking
why it’s so hard. A broken strength,
but holding up so much.

I smile and breathe.

I’ve been here, that is why I don’t
fear, fear the next steps I take. I’ve 
been here, so I can hear all the right 
things. See all the best things. Live
my life without the added hurt of 
covering up the wounds in my soul. 

The sales, the reads, the ones who are
weren’t there don’t mean a damn thing to me.
Because 

My story has always been about honesty.
well, to be honest, I almost didn’t make 
it. I went through a good part of my life
holding it all in, kinda hoping to see the end. 
deep down future, I thought I couldn’t win.

I’ve been there, that is why I can be alone.
Walk alone and not ever feel lonely. The
love I got from the world around me lifted
me higher than the insecurities inside me. 
The love I got from the life long blessings around 
me lifted me higher than the demons deep within 
me. 

I saw the signs and thank god I’ve
been here before. Been here in this
deep end. I saw the sighs so I don’t 
have to pretend to be stronger than I 
really am. I’ve been here, so I don’t
fear the next chapter. I’ve been here
so I can’t wait for the next part
of my story to begin.

God, I thank you for keeping me here.

I’ve been here, but I’ve never been higher
than I am right now. I found that everything 
with a purpose always makes a sound. Which 
is why I always thank God for keeping me here.
I've still here because...

I’ve been here, so I can breathe and not have
to hold all this pain in. 

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