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#21: Gift of your Memory

12/23/2021

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Snow used to fall so harshly 
as I cried on the porch waiting
to hear your footsteps. It used to
fall so harshly as I revisited memories 
of last December, not knowing 
that would be the moment our
December ends. I no longer 
fight back tears as I let the 
Snowfall. I let them fall as I 
remember you. 

A part of me never thought I 
would finally be able to stand
the snowfall. A part of me never
thought I could watch the door
and accept the fact that you’re
never coming home. A part of me 
Never thought that I would ever
find peace in the remedy of the 
Snowfall again. 

After all these Decembers even though
I’m still missing you the snow didn’t
bury my heart. Now I’m giving 
myself the gift of your memory 
this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

The snow falls so peacefully
as I slowly breathe and remember 
our last december so vividly. I 
now sleep peacefully moving 
onto a new winter never ever 
trying to recreate the december 
we once had. I can share every 
piece of me without feeling like
I’m forgetting you. The snow touches
my skin and in that moment I think
of you. 

I never thought I would be able to
bear the snowfall by myself let alone
with someone else. I confess I felt
guilty as I watched the snowfall with
someone else, but I knew deep down
you would want me to move past
the storm and find the love in the 
snowfall again.

After all these Decembers even though
I’m still missing you the snow didn’t
bury my heart. Now I’m giving 
myself the gift of your memory 
this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

The gift of your memory keeps me 
from losing myself in the snowfall.
The gift of your memory allows me 
to move on this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

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#20: Revisitng Peace in December

12/23/2021

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Waking up on a cold December night and you are not in my sight.
I fight back the flooding tears; because I will never feel you on my skin again.
Nights like this, I pray you come through the door to hold me.
Under the heavenly lights.
This night is breaking me and tearing my heart apart.

I never thought I would bear this time.
Without you here with me
Waking up on the first of many cold days
Going to sleep on my many cold nights.
Realizing you are not coming home. 

Bearing December with so much pain in my heart. 
Bearing December alone in my bed, in my house, in my soul.
Bearing December with no one to talk to.
Looking at the snow on the ground and I can see you coming to the door.
Holding back tears, this December.

The first night is the hardest; the first break of daylight is the most
overbearing. Everyone asking how am I holding up? They feel the cold on my
skin, and the pain begins to win. The tears begin to flood, and then I go back
To our room wishing it was not a cold December, because I can’t bear this time
without you.

I never thought I would bear this time.
Without you next to me.
Waking up on the first of many closed spaces.
Going to sleep on the first of many filled nights
realizing you are not coming home. As the 
memories don’t slow down. 

Bearing December with so much pain in my heart. 
Bearing December alone in my bed, in my house, in my soul.
Bearing December with no one to talk to
Looking at the snow on the ground, and I can remember seeing you
Last December coming to the door.
Holding back tears, on this December

Holding myself up at the front door and the cold 
Is hitting my skin, and the snow seem like slow rain drops.
Missing you this hard on this month, bearing this cold December. 
I put faith in god you are here with me, not the way I want you
But having you here with me in my soul is enough for me to bear this
December

Bearing December with so much pain in my heart. 
Bearing December alone in our bed, in our house, in my soul.
Bearing December with no one to talk to except the memories 
of you.

Looking at the snow on the ground and I can see you coming to the door.
As I begin to hold back tears, this December.




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