#21: Gift of your Memory

Snow used to fall so harshly 
as I cried on the porch waiting
to hear your footsteps. It used to
fall so harshly as I revisited memories 
of last December, not knowing 
that would be the moment our
December ends. I no longer 
fight back tears as I let the 
Snowfall. I let them fall as I 
remember you. 

A part of me never thought I 
would finally be able to stand
the snowfall. A part of me never
thought I could watch the door
and accept the fact that you’re
never coming home. A part of me 
Never thought that I would ever
find peace in the remedy of the 
Snowfall again. 

After all these Decembers even though
I’m still missing you the snow didn’t
bury my heart. Now I’m giving 
myself the gift of your memory 
this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

The snow falls so peacefully
as I slowly breathe and remember 
our last december so vividly. I 
now sleep peacefully moving 
onto a new winter never ever 
trying to recreate the december 
we once had. I can share every 
piece of me without feeling like
I’m forgetting you. The snow touches
my skin and in that moment I think
of you. 

I never thought I would be able to
bear the snowfall by myself let alone
with someone else. I confess I felt
guilty as I watched the snowfall with
someone else, but I knew deep down
you would want me to move past
the storm and find the love in the 
snowfall again.

After all these Decembers even though
I’m still missing you the snow didn’t
bury my heart. Now I’m giving 
myself the gift of your memory 
this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

The gift of your memory keeps me 
from losing myself in the snowfall.
The gift of your memory allows me 
to move on this december. 

I’m bearing this
December with the gift of your 
memory. 

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