#28: Happy Holidays

I sit out and wonder where I go. After this moment of 
forever has gone, how do I move on? I remember the 
lights so bright, but after you fell from my life and stood 
up in my memory. I couldn’t help but think of the snowfall. 
It feels like you are here so suddenly and then gone just 
as fast. I look up as it falls. All I can hear is a voice call 
out to me, I breathe as the snowfalls. 

When the snow falls, it feels like your call to me. I remember 
when the lights used to shine so bright, when I last saw you 
they were so dim, but when the snowfalls they woke up. All 
I can feel is that it's unfair that they still shine so bright without 
you here for the light to shine on your face. I see you as the 
snowfalls, I feel you as the lights shine bright.  

Every year I know it won't be long before I hear your call. As 
long as I am a step away from the snowfall, I'll never be too 
far from your call. 

As the sun comes back up, I think for a moment how I came 
so close to seeing you again, but as the sun shined on me 
I realized that I was just close to a memory. A forever in a 
moment that didn’t seem long enough. The lights have 
gone dim, but when I look into the distance, look into the 
moment I see the snowfall. 

When I step out into the snow, it's like stepping out into faith. 
You're not here, but each time the snow falls it feels like your 
call. Each time the lights shine so bright, I know that I have 
to fight back to not feel everything all at once. I would sink 
into the snow if it weren’t for you telling me that I’m not 
done, that the light is not done shining on me.

I know it’s fair when the lights shine so bright, but I’m glad 
they shine so bright to help me remember. I pace my way 
to the snowfall just to avoid rushing into it all. When I step 
into the falls it feels like I’m stepping into faith. 


When the snow falls it feels like you’re calling me.